“Who in the world am I? Ah, that’s the great puzzle.”
― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland
― Albert Camus
Its better to spend time with yourself than to introspect yourself.
Generally when you introspect, you interview yourself. You force yourself to answer questions. Only a conscious mind can question. When you are consciously asking question you force yourself to answer consciously and you tend to connect two disjoint thoughts, do some reverse reasoning and come up with answers to justify things and actions, you don’t find the reason so you create one.
To spend quality time with yourself can never mean that you keep on questioning your subconscious mind like an annoying reporter. When you spend time with yourself you are not an interviewer. You are an observer, a listener, a companion. Spending time with yourself means waiting for your mind to speak, enjoying the silence, giving time to your inner-self to boot. I have used the word “spending” and not “using” cause you don’t be with yourself with any intention or purpose, you can’t start with the aim of “utilizing” your time with yourself. You don’t try anything (except ignoring distractions and which over the period of time don’t bother you). Its like watching a dance. You enjoy the steps, you enjoy the pauses, you don’t ask a dancer to make the next move quickly, you don’t ask why the dancer did not take one more round; instead you just observe and enjoy the dance.
“In order to understand the world, one has to turn away from it on occasion.”
Inner dance answers all of the questions automatically, because when you consciously ask yourself a question your subconscious mind also registers it. This is because your subconscious mind is always awake. Only when you let your subconscious mind to flow freely, you can get the answers to the most complex and important questions in life. At the right time these answers also connect the missing links but easily without using any reverse engineering technique. Archimedes discovered his buoyancy to displacement principle when he asked the question consciously but got his answer when he was expecting it the least.
When you have spent enough time watching the beautiful dance, your inner-self invites you again and again to watch it and then just like your body tells you that it wants food your dancer sends you the signal that it wants to talk to you. Unless you once again watch the dance you feel restless. This article was written after I felt the urge to see the dance. I did not think over the points for the article. They just occurred to me and I kept writing.
“Silence is all that is needed, and everything else follows on its own accord” -Osho